@ReindeerMarmalade you are very kind thank you. Yes it's very deep seated I've had years of treatment but nothing has worked unfortunately I take meds to get through this part of the year. I do try to keep things in perspective like u say when people take stupid risks in bad weather- any weather extreme ty can be lethal if u take silly risks I guess even hot temps which is my favourite kind of weather but yet I know someone who is scared of hot summers. Being on here is a good and bad thing for me.